Well everyone today has been a good day! Had an indoors day, as had a lot to get through, though a friend popped over and twas nice to see her. After last nights meditations I felt a bit more motivated and focused today (what I was aiming for). Got a lot of stuff in the house done, energy feels nice and clear.
I'm going to be doing a video blog on alters(well the first of a few on the subject) so keep your eyes peeled. Also if I find the time, I intend to write an account and share it with you, of my invocation of Samael, as well as an experience its a reflection I've been wanted to write down for a long time about ceremonial magick and its effects on the mind
I was going to do it as a video but in all seriousness, it would just get far to drawn out by the end of it. Plus try to keep the taped rambles to no more then ten mins, this is one of these subjects I could talk about for ten hours(yes run away now lol). So a hefty post coming up either tonight or tomorrow. Depends how much more of this sodding essay I do
Anyway this birdy has a few things to quietly reflect on so until later, peace out and don't do anything I wouldn't :)
NNB
Tuesday 6 December 2011
Monday 5 December 2011
Urmm sorry about the glitch
Well first of all sorry sorry sorry I've not been posting. But its not been easy recently at all, my heads been in quite a dark place and only recently have I been feeling a better. Where to start I suppose I know from where I left off ;)
Well the LARP was like a breath of fresh air and it was lovely to catch up with so many people and also get back to doing something I love and enjoy, really exceptional Sunday and well it seemed that when i got back that's when it all went a bit wrong.
I was tempted to write a post after I got back but I the post would of been filled with a fair amount of venom and not that pleasant, to say the least it felt like my world was ripped out from under me and toss aside like it was fuck all. Have never felt so disrespected and angry, kinda spiralled into that dark place and stayed there and thrashed about in my own maelstrom. Took me a while to get back to me feeling calm and good and back to the old bird.
This last week I have been doing my essay, ohh that essay, how I hate you. Organic nomenclature fine,even with the stereochemistry, though the thermodynamics when feeling quite demotivated and meh can be a bit daunting, especially when its all math based.I was supposed to be getting some support on the math but you know, not to speak bad but it never happened.
On the plus side, my magick studies are coming along nicely and also tonight I've done a lot of release and healing and well for the last 4-5 days have been feeling more like me, clear focused and driven. Also I feel happy and well got a few things planned. I hand my essay in on Thursday so intend to do something pleasant over the weekend :)
Anyway you lot, new video blog coming up soon. Love, light and things which sneak up behind you in the night. Until the morrow....
NNB
Well the LARP was like a breath of fresh air and it was lovely to catch up with so many people and also get back to doing something I love and enjoy, really exceptional Sunday and well it seemed that when i got back that's when it all went a bit wrong.
I was tempted to write a post after I got back but I the post would of been filled with a fair amount of venom and not that pleasant, to say the least it felt like my world was ripped out from under me and toss aside like it was fuck all. Have never felt so disrespected and angry, kinda spiralled into that dark place and stayed there and thrashed about in my own maelstrom. Took me a while to get back to me feeling calm and good and back to the old bird.
This last week I have been doing my essay, ohh that essay, how I hate you. Organic nomenclature fine,even with the stereochemistry, though the thermodynamics when feeling quite demotivated and meh can be a bit daunting, especially when its all math based.I was supposed to be getting some support on the math but you know, not to speak bad but it never happened.
On the plus side, my magick studies are coming along nicely and also tonight I've done a lot of release and healing and well for the last 4-5 days have been feeling more like me, clear focused and driven. Also I feel happy and well got a few things planned. I hand my essay in on Thursday so intend to do something pleasant over the weekend :)
Anyway you lot, new video blog coming up soon. Love, light and things which sneak up behind you in the night. Until the morrow....
NNB
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