Well first of all sorry sorry sorry I've not been posting. But its not been easy recently at all, my heads been in quite a dark place and only recently have I been feeling a better. Where to start I suppose I know from where I left off ;)
Well the LARP was like a breath of fresh air and it was lovely to catch up with so many people and also get back to doing something I love and enjoy, really exceptional Sunday and well it seemed that when i got back that's when it all went a bit wrong.
I was tempted to write a post after I got back but I the post would of been filled with a fair amount of venom and not that pleasant, to say the least it felt like my world was ripped out from under me and toss aside like it was fuck all. Have never felt so disrespected and angry, kinda spiralled into that dark place and stayed there and thrashed about in my own maelstrom. Took me a while to get back to me feeling calm and good and back to the old bird.
This last week I have been doing my essay, ohh that essay, how I hate you. Organic nomenclature fine,even with the stereochemistry, though the thermodynamics when feeling quite demotivated and meh can be a bit daunting, especially when its all math based.I was supposed to be getting some support on the math but you know, not to speak bad but it never happened.
On the plus side, my magick studies are coming along nicely and also tonight I've done a lot of release and healing and well for the last 4-5 days have been feeling more like me, clear focused and driven. Also I feel happy and well got a few things planned. I hand my essay in on Thursday so intend to do something pleasant over the weekend :)
Anyway you lot, new video blog coming up soon. Love, light and things which sneak up behind you in the night. Until the morrow....
NNB
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Monday, 5 December 2011
Saturday, 19 November 2011
Shhhh its the 19th really...
Eeep little bit late on posting but had a council meeting to attend with my online group the legion of light and dark(a coven based on the website spells of magic). Would love to say I did many many wonderful things today, but my son woke me up at 4am in the morning by jumping on my abdomen, pinching my cheeks and saying "wakey wakey" so one has been feeling rather ruined all day.
The chaos has receded and it will get there when it does and to be honest I don't want the extra stress currently. Have had quite a quiet night. My son has been at his fathers and well been getting on with stuff. Though need to do some more clearing up and take the flowers of the alter, as they are beginning to wither now.
Super excited about later today and my return to LARP going to be soooo much fun, I actually get all " squeee" like when I think about it ahh its all good. Feeling like the old me a little more everyday which is good. Anyway. I best get back to it and get a spot of ritual done and cleanse the space a little bit. I think to end on something which, I tend to live by..
Do what thou will, shall be the whole of the law. Love is the law, love under will
NNB
The chaos has receded and it will get there when it does and to be honest I don't want the extra stress currently. Have had quite a quiet night. My son has been at his fathers and well been getting on with stuff. Though need to do some more clearing up and take the flowers of the alter, as they are beginning to wither now.
Super excited about later today and my return to LARP going to be soooo much fun, I actually get all " squeee" like when I think about it ahh its all good. Feeling like the old me a little more everyday which is good. Anyway. I best get back to it and get a spot of ritual done and cleanse the space a little bit. I think to end on something which, I tend to live by..
Do what thou will, shall be the whole of the law. Love is the law, love under will
NNB
Friday, 18 November 2011
18/11/2011 :Holding back the crawling chaos
Well have had a very good and positive day today. Finally had good sleep which is always nice. As for the title of todays blog, everything in the house is misplaced. I think I underestimated the time it would take(or my own personal energy levels) as everything I do something else leaks from somewhere else. I've been working for 5 hours on it today and still stuff everywhere. Ohhh how i look forward to getting it cleared and really am going to smudge this house to within an inch of it existence!
Also fully grabbed exercise today and spent a rather pleasant few hours in the gym. Was what I needed. Now to plan the weekend, I'm hoping I can finsih off tonight and perhaps get some Kundalini work done, which would be nice.
The small man will be going over to see his father tomorrow and have been trying to figure out what to do with my Saturday. My Sunday will be filled with the delights of LARP(live action roleplay) something I've not been able to do for years and well back with avengeance. Plus after the last few weeks, running around a forest with a foam latex sword, fighting people, sounds like a perfect release.
Well i thinkI have nothing more to say then this tonight.....
"Iä! Iä! Cthulhu fhtagn!"
Also fully grabbed exercise today and spent a rather pleasant few hours in the gym. Was what I needed. Now to plan the weekend, I'm hoping I can finsih off tonight and perhaps get some Kundalini work done, which would be nice.
The small man will be going over to see his father tomorrow and have been trying to figure out what to do with my Saturday. My Sunday will be filled with the delights of LARP(live action roleplay) something I've not been able to do for years and well back with avengeance. Plus after the last few weeks, running around a forest with a foam latex sword, fighting people, sounds like a perfect release.
Well i thinkI have nothing more to say then this tonight.....
"Iä! Iä! Cthulhu fhtagn!"
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